dont waste your time reading. this is NOTHING.



okay well. after what had happened after midnight, i just realised that whatever i did all along is wrong. i should have listen to what kakak said earlier on. she's my elder sister for godness sake, why dont i just listen? she had more experience than i do. i guess im just like those stubborn head people who wont listen to people until they themselves got it right through.


i should have realise that whatever ive been doing all this while is just giving him hope. going out with him, replying his sms-es, picking up his call. im just giving him hope. im sorry i didnt say anything when you called except for the," ermm." im not like you that can express your feelings through talking. im not like other people that can just talk and talk all night long. like i say, im a boring person. but i express my feelings through writing. i know you know i have diary. omg, now people know im so old-fashion.


are you sure when you say," if you're happy, im happy too." or does it just kills to see im happy? i know you get jealous very easily but i dont see what's wrong being in myspace. i hate it whenever you talk about myspace. i know what's right and wrong for me. i know you pretended to believe me and trust me. i know all that. im not stupid. but i wont forget everything you've done. all those efforts. neither would i forget you as a friend. there's no more US but there's only me and you. there's a different between them, right?


why am i expressing all in here? everybody's gonna know what im going through but what the hell? ugh. i dont care. bye.