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"it wouldnt be a shocking thing if i were to get low marks."


ive no mood to update recently because im very depressed. i failed my english AGAIN. this is like my 3rd time failing english lah sial. of course ah i depressed.


moreover, i failed my ART. like what the hell. never in my life before i failed that particular subject. at least a just pass was okay. grr. i hate my art teacher. i was sad when she said my drawing was below standard. HOW CAN I NOT BE SAD? at least if she said my drawing was cute, okaylah. i dont mind. HAHA.


but i hate my physics teacher the most. HE IS THE MOST NONSENSICAL TEACHER i can ever have. 7 students in my physics class failed physics and he made it look like we got zero for that subject.
he said this sort-of sarcastic-ly,"i really wonder how come this girls can fail when they actually write notes when i teach. i think they only pretended to study in front of me. behind me, they throw away the books."


fuck, i hate him. i study like mad for his subject as i feared that i would fail. but pfft, it didnt paid off.


why can teachers be like cikgu fatimah and mrs johari? even when some failed, instead of scolding us, they encouraged us to work harder. i like those kind of teachers. they gave me advices of encouragement.


i told farhana i wanted to stop studying from now onwards and be like last time. i used to not study(hard) when examinations came and i can pass them easily. sometimes, with flying flowers. but this year, when i used almost 3% of my brain to study, study and study, i actually get lower marks than what i expected. and i meant it, LOWER.